So for those of you that are late to the party… I’m engaged.
Yes, I know.
Start praying to your God because the apocalypse is near. Ha.
Thirty-one days ago, I said “Yes” to a guy who kneeled down beside our bed with a big diamond ring. While I sat there, makeup-less and sporting bulldog pajama pants, completely stunned. It was without a doubt, the easiest “Yes” I’ve ever given in my life. Granted, I would’ve much preferred to look stunningly beautiful in some lavish treehouse where stardust was sprinkling from the sky…but hey… it was still sweet. And caught me completely off guard. Quite the feat.
And the beauty of it was, I never had even a moment’s hesitation.
This is it.
This is my human. I found him. And even better…
My human WANTS to be tied with my crazy ass for the rest of his life…like, he thinks HE’S hit the jackpot with ME. Clearly, he’s insane. Lucky for me.
And it’s been a blissful month. Strange, in some regards. And definitely, a huge reminder to myself (and those around me) that I am rather far removed from the typical girl’s frame of mind with being “engaged”.
First of all, please let me preface this with… I AM SO HAPPY WITH THIS MAN! He is the only person I could ever say/think/feel ‘forever’ about. He’s the weirdest, most generous, down for an adventure dude I’ve ever known and he makes me better without ever asking it of me. I literally cannot believe that someone knows all my bullshit…my hot mess of a past…this “wrecking ball to the self-esteem” dream I continue to chase…the balance in my checking account currently…my obsession with my larger than life family…supporting that I live in another state 50% of the time…the reality that I’ll never love his dog half as much as he does…my inability to apologize most of the time…(you catch my drift)…and yet…
He will stand before anyone and everyone and promise me the best and the rest of his life.
Holy shit, ya’ll.
Just typing that (and the 3 glasses of wine I’ve had) is making me tear up majorly at the moment. I never thought I’d see the day that I’d get engaged. And to be completely honest with you, I was more than okay with that. Because a ring on my finger was never a part of “the dream” (just ask any guy I’ve ever dated/family/friends). I never envisioned what a wedding would look like. (Or owning a house. Or having children. Or basically, anything that a normal adult would see for their lives.) Simply put, that was never in my “check” boxes.
So to be wearing a ring of my finger for the last 31 days, and to have not lost/misplaced it yet, is truly wild. That being said…
Being engaged is fucking weird.
People congratulate me constantly…for what? I mean, I too am happy that I have this guy and that I’m no longer wasting time getting wasted with douchebags. Because those that know my story know that it ain’t been the prettiest. I’ve been through some real shit.
But to congratulate me feels odd…like I accomplished something super impressive…the impressive part was finally allowing someone deserving into my world and loving him back. The ring is just a beautiful bonus. But even still…
I’m only part way to the finish line by Pinterest’s standards.
Because apparently there’s this whole wedding thing to plan/obsess/lose my shit over.
And the unavoidable “so you’re going to have children?” conversation.
Let me say this.
I can’t not roll my eyes at the word “fiancé”. Nor do I care about a date, a dress, a venue, color schemes, the selection of the wedding party, keeping my nails well-manicured to show off my ring, picking out baby names, or anything else that isn’t about one thing and one thing only…
Me & him. Him & I.
The ones doing forever.
So yes, I did wait almost a week before I announced my engagement on social media. Yes, we still haven’t changed our Facebook relationship status. Yes, you will have to ask to see my ring because I won’t think to flaunt it for everyone I see. Yes, it’s true, we don’t have a date or a plan yet and we are totally okay with that. And yes, if him and I were only thinking of ourselves, we would’ve eloped yesterday.
And yes…the moment I realized I didn’t care about the attention or validation like I thought I was supposed to was when I knew…
This shit is real, this is right…
This is cemetery plots side by side.
Bring it on, baby.
And a whole-hearted “THANK YOU” to the followers of this journey…sweet Lord, we’ve seen it all and I love you for loving me through it